A turning point in my growth as a creative writer occurred on October 23, 2019. While working on my novel, Syndrome, I finally grasped the true meaning of that so-frequently-given advice---
Write what makes you uncomfortable, what scares you
This adage always made sense to me, going back many years back when I first heard it--- but it had never really clicked. I'd always thought with a shrug, 'I don't know what I'm scared of writing, but I'll write it when I get to it.'
During that Wednesday evening writing session, my thoughts were coming fast, even interrupting each other. But at least twice, the lines flowing through my head felt like they hit a wall. A couple of times, I froze. I found myself thinking, 'I can't write that. That's not like me at all. What will the reader think of me?'
For the first time while writing, I was scared. I hesitated.
However, in my mind's eye, I saw that the black stone wall blocking my path was indeed very solid, but it was lacking height.
I hopped over it with relative ease and recognized the moment for what it was--- a leveling up, a blooming.